Tuesday, April 1, 2008

好累

天气:
先在的我是一个心领很累的女人。我有满多的心里话想说但又不知如何说起。我想把我的心里话说出来却又怕我说的话会伤害到人或领到人生气。我很在意别人的情绪以及思想。我不知道如何才能达到自由说话,人会又耐心的听而又不会领到人感到伤害。我真的很矛盾。每个人都想过快了的生活,我也不例外。每个女人都希望陪自己爱的人疼爱。

我是一个很难理解的女人吗?

我只想要一个爱我,理解和谅解我,呵护与保护我,能互相信任,能和我一起度过和分享痛苦与快乐的人。我不需要你做任何大改变。如果有一点点的改变我已经心满意足。(希望你听到我内心的呐喊)

Friday, March 28, 2008

Needs someone to listen...

Weather:
There are so many things I want to say but I know there are many things we can't say it on the internet. It's not difficult to find someone who is willing to listen to my woes but sometimes I need that person who is involved in situation to listen and find a solution together.

I know it's hard at times when women want to get their message across to men and vice versa. I learn to respect that men and women are different and can never be equal. I'm willing to learn to make myself being able to be understood by people around me especially my love ones. In fact, how many people are actually willing to do that? Willing to learn doesn't mean that you forgo being yourself but knowing how to handle and understand opposite sex needs better.

There are so many things I want to know the truth and I do not have the courage to ask but then I have to understand that if the truth is being told it's going to be hurtful. So I ask myself again, would I rather be told the truth? Yes, I would rather know the truth even though it is going to be hurtful. Why? Because telling the truth won't make a person go around guessing your actions. When people start to guess, there are many possibilities and that is when mistrust, misunderstanding, doubts and fear starts flowing into mind.

In relationships, men might ask why is it when a women do something wrong and in the end the men have to apologise? "Sorry" is a very big word for men as men do not apologise unless they felt that they are in the wrong. Whereas for women, "Sorry" means they care about how you feel. "Sorry" is a magical word when a women hear the word from a men. Why? This I ain't sure but I do know that if my love were to do something wrong and apologise, I will tend to be even more forgiving. When the word "Sorry" goes into a women's ear, hearts will be like cheese melting away~

It definitely feels good to love and to be love in return. How many people are actually willing to sacrifice themselves for the person they love? I know I'm one who is willing to sacrifice many things for the person I love. People might say is it worth doing so many things and you might not get a return. In the first place, when I am willing to give I should have the preparation that I won't be able to get a return but if I did that is of course a good surprise.

Time can definitely heal many wounds and let us forget about a lot of things. Time plus someone whom you love to give love, care and concern. Healing of wounds and forgetting things can be a lot faster. I know there will always be sunshine after the rain but after sunshine there will always be rain.

Right now, I need a lot of love, care and concern. I need someone to be there for me, someone to depend on, someone to give me hugs, someone who can put me to sleep at night, someone to give me kisses, someone to be there when I fall, someone to be there when I'm happy, someone to share tears with, someone to hold on, someone who is concern about me, someone who will protect me, someone who cares everything about me, someone who loves me and someone who is willing to share each other's ups and downs. And I wish that someone is you (I won't be naming who).

- It's almost every women's wish that they will be first priority in their men's heart -

Friday, February 22, 2008

Apologies

My apologies to everyone who reads my blog. I'm so sorry that temporary there won't be any updates for at least another week or so. Please bare with me and I'll be back soon.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Regaining myself

Weather:
Too be honest. I wasn't feeling that good for the past week or so. The past week was a puzzled, tiring and confusing one. I was so confused that I kept shivering and breaking down. After talking to people, I felt way much better especially today.

So much of thinking and puzzling, I realise that in reality that I was the one who is the big part of this problem I'm going through. Relationships are so amazing. They can make you feel you're at the top of the world and also right at the bottom of it. There's going to be obstacles in everything we do but if both person were to go through it together, then it will be easier to go through isn't it? Human beings are also amazing. We can get use to things so quickly that we didn't even notice. There are many things I'm still learning.

Monday, February 4, 2008

No point blogging

Weather:
I see no point in me blogging any moment now. Sorry.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Self Reflection Day

Weather:
After going through some self reflection. I realise that i'm blessed with a wonderful man. A man who takes good care of me, loves me, be there for me when I needed him. What more else should I ask for right? Indeed I learn that I shouldn't have ask for more. I will treasure my time with him more when given chance to. I told myself thousands of times, that I will be giving him my support in whatever he do. It feel so special that I get him as my boyfriend. Being with him is so comfortable. Whenever he is around, I feel secure.

I know certain things I've said I can't reverse and that is one big regret I have. My heart sank instantly when I see him so troubled or sad. I realise that I didn't treat him well enough and I think I should have done even better. I love him so much that I can give up everything for him to be happy.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Not feeling so well...yet again

Weather:
Sitting on my desk feeling unwell this morning. I felt some burning sensation around my chest. It is painful. Ain't sure if I want leave early today to see a doctor.

Applications for universities are open today til 21 Feb. There's so many things to be done. Sigh. So many things undone. I'm so gonna rush everything from now til chinese new year break. 加油!